karma & mind rape

aku cme nk kte la....hidup kte x boleh expect slalu ade kat atas....
demm anak emas la weh klau hari2 fortune anda continuous baik je....
andai kata,hari ni luck x berada di pihak anda,
tolong lah,tolong.
resolve dengan tenang,dgn whichever way u find best
take note,dgn expressing ur rage dkt org lain,
even worse,dgn org yg anda x kenal pn....
stakat mne la sympathy yg anda dpt.
its all momentary
so please,elakkan dragging other ppl into ur problem.ur not making things easier....
ini generally speaking....from my view....
its my blog,not urs.i cant be you,i cant be everyone else other than me.
so ini hnye pandanganku semata2....

whats fueling me to suddenly bring this up i wonder....
cuma teringat peristiwa a few weeks ago.which secara x langsung affect diri aku gak....

me n my 2 friends,alep & amin went to danga city mall.
supposedly for a single purpose,
a limited edition Razer bag,which amin dri dulu nak sgt~
until i told him that i saw it somewhere at DCM.he successfully persuaded me to go with him...
again...
haha...
n alep was just tagging along,i mean,at first.
so technically i dont have any obligation to go there.
fine,enough nonsense.straight to the point.
blame my habit of constructing things in details

jya.we took a cab there from cs.
lets just say,we took a wrong one
i mean,literally.

a middle-aged indian uncle as a driver.
it didnt took long for him to agree.but yeah.i could see the look on his face.
a subtle hint of dissapointment,anger with a lil stroke of sadness carved,clearly on the said surface
believe me,in my hard times,i learnt on how to read ones figure.i cant say im always right,though.
thats bcoz i usually had to take cab due to lack of transport in my family.

(da mnyimpang da....)

but

 it would leave a deeper scar,if we refuse.kan?
so what to do.naik je la.
me in front
until now im still wondering why am i always in front.
i dont like sitting in front...seriously....

so i was greeted with a sentence
"awak budak skolah bukannya bodoh"

clearly.but pretended lyk i didnt hear anythin

follows a looooong sigh from the uncle
"haaaaaaaiiiih"
"bodoh,saya memang bodoh.knapa saya pigi ambil u orang semua"

*hentak dahi kat steering*

okay, i was annoyed.
tapi x habis lagi...

"adik,u kalau mau pigi dekat2,ambil itu teksi tahan tepi jalan.uncle sini queue dari ini pagi hapah takda.u orang tak faham mcm mana uncle rasa.tunggu pnya tunggu suda lama,tadi pagi satu orang naik mau pigi mana,pigi LANDMARK saja,sudah rm3.uncle balik sini queue,tunggu 2 jam,u orang mau pigi Danga.memang SIAL la dua tiga hari ni !!itu pelempuan depan mau pigi jauh,saya tau.tapi u orang naik.uncle tau mana orang mau pigi jauh,mana mau pigi dekat,u budak dont understand la....sewa ini teksi uncle belum bayar mcm mana mau bagi makan minum anak isteri,memang SIAL la!!" 
katanya sebelum mengakhiri ayat dengan hentakan dahi di steering yang bergaya


u get the idea,uncle ni da tunggu berbaris kat taxi stand CS.lama.die harapkan orang naik ntuk pergi jauh2 la.
at least dpt la duit bayar sewa teksi ke or sara hidup family dia as stated.tapi kitorang naik,prgi danga city mall je,die kcewa....

....
it goes on,bnde yg sama.dlm 10 minit prjalanan,dgar die mmbebel.
aku?dduk je sebelah dia.kebalkan telinga kne caci sume.
rasa nak bash tu memang ada.point2 da berbaris dalam otak nak kasik bahas.
but hey,he's in his tough time...
besides,like i really would...

kitorang diam je...

salah aku gak,x fikir.maen ambik je teksi...
under pressure,smua nk cepat.takleh salahkan sesiapa.
tolong la jgn bg aku decide dlm time camni.tak,jgn bagi aku decide pn.

uncle,deyy
that day mungkin nsib anda x baik.apa yg anda achieve by bebelan tersebut pun saya x tau.
tp control la sket,manage ur anger.from the look of it,itu mybe faktor knapa anda jarang dpt customer.
sure,saya budak2,saya tak faham.but we both cari rezeki dari perspektif yg sama.
u niaga,saya pun niaga.

u cari customer,dapat customer,mintak fare,sudah,balik kerja.be grateful dgn hasil hari tu.
u marah mcm mane pn dkt random customer,it wont change anything.sekadar meredakan kemarahan di hati.feels good?think about the after effect.....im sure as hell i wont be riding that same cab.ever.
klau anda btul2 berinisiatif nk carik customer,sacrifice skit minyak,round2 la skit,honk sini sana or whatever.
ape la sgt yg anda bleh expect dgn duduk je dlm keta,berbaris tunggu berjam2 pastu kecewa sndiri....
yes,u did have my sympathy.but ape yg saya boleh buat kn?
i wish u best of luck.do not put ur responsibility at rest.

saya pn tak layak ckp bnyk.a 15 yo boy would never understand how u feel,how every taxi drivers feel.
all i can do is nag....nag....and nag in my tranquil little world,and constantly arguing with my fcked up lil mind..

going green.

....
i wish i can be there
yeah,just like in the picture
everywhere i walk,vines of concrete jungle jog along
when earthly desires finds a place to rest its head
i yearn for a single,green,tall tree to lean on
i try to take shelter from our own cause,our plague,our misconception and ignorance.
then i ask to myself,will i be able to keep this thought of liberalities?
will i stand aside and watch while the root is rotting?
then a simple statement,a deep-born answer follows ;

"no"

i then looked at myself,i know exactly where i am,where i should be,and what i really want
but i know my place,i know~
there comes the moment where my head turns light,n my thoughts just....stopped.
a guy can dream,its best to not abandon all hope.
for now,i can only manage to keep dreaming



now where the hell is the tree.where the hell could i find tranquility?

Afterlife

finally,a second trailer for the movie.
Resident Evil:Afterlife

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MxLvCh8Pf6s
(trailer #2)







being a fan of the series (games & movies),cant afford to miss this one
tho the movies received a lot of critics sbab not following the game storyline.
beb.i dont wanna watch things that i played.
its actually a good idea to give the trilogy a fresh,new breath of conflict
instead of repeating ape yg gamers da main.

i played all resident evil games,except dead aim & outbreak
*bcoz i didnt own a ps2 dammit*
and yeah,i agree with the whole reboot thingy shown in the movies.
as long as it involves T-virus and zombies.the storyline isnt really affected as it sticks to the main theme.
oh,u never played the game,should the movie give chance to new players to understand its legacy?
did u know that i used to spent hours in front of my pc,watching re5 full gameplay on youtube?
bcause i thought i couldnt afford to play it and wanted to keep up with the storyline~
thats how desperate i was.
dont worry la,typical-resident-evil-movie;
awal2 mesti ade suara Milla Jovovich narrate psl resident evil history.
so viewers x la rase blur wlaupun trlepas previous movies.


right.back to the trailer.
first time tengok trailer#1,i'd say its based on resident evil 5...with a lil matrix scene.








http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qEDtOEVvxlA&feature=related
(trailer #1)
see what i mean.

then came trailer#2
confirmed,re5 adaptation.
will be screening in 3D this November 10th

here i am trying to make a lil analysis based on Trailer#2.
what i can conclude is:

• Kak Milah(Milla Jovovivh) will be starring Alice again,Ali Larter is back as Claire Redfield n most cast dari RE:extinction will make their appearance

• continued where RE:extinction left off.survivors head to Alaska lpas dgr emergency radio broadcast.
• Alice ambush Umbrella pnyer underground facility somewhere at Tokyo.with the rest of her clones from project Alice

• Albert Wesker is in (WOOT).featuring his superhuman strength & agility.(1:30-1:33)
• they'll be facing Las Plagas,an evolution of T-virus as seen in RE4 & more to progenitor RE5 (1:03) Executioner (the guy with big axe,originally from re5) is goin to be in the movie (1:46-1:49) 
•  Claire Redfield,mind controlled, attached with P30 device(0:44).one similar to Jill valentine in RE5.
• i see refugees taking shelter in some kinda prison.with hordes of zombeh & executioner surrounding them(1:00)
• a fighting scene between claire & executioner in a bathroom(1:44) most likely alice will come to save the day etc

n i dont want to spoil the rest.

wanna see how this turns out

n wanna see how epicly i fail at proving my conclusion !

nyahahahahahahaha

10th november 2010

                                                         Kak Milah say jgn tinggal solat

tired of lagging?

read if you're willing to spend a hefty sum of money for performance,or merely a hobby.
if you're a gamer and wanted to get urself a top-notch of everything,and simply dominate.
looking for breakthrough from reality,or simply wanted to spend your 'fortune' over something.


here's something for ya.took my time browsing through the latest and best pc components ; a guaranteed zero-lagging experience.just thought of listing them down for future reference.
note that the listing are the best from my pick.there might be better,but yeah.

lets start off from the core.u'll need a processor.

intel core i7 980x Extreme edition
cost roughly about RM3,570
the best.the fastest processor a build has to offer.
EXT doesnt live out to its name.its pretty much the same thing u can get with lower price.so there.
guaranteed by pc enthusiast,guaranteed by gamers.its the best.enough said.


now,the mainboard.

ASUS P6T7 WS SuperComputer

the name gave me bone chills,so did the price

cost about RM2,099

why,u ask?

the motherboard has 7 pcie x16 slot,

meaning, it can support 7 graphic cards.yes,tujuh.

7 GPU lining side-by-side.helluva crossfireX/SLI experience.

1 graphic card = 3 monitors

7 graphic cards = do the math

dont forget the 6 DDR3 RAM slot.it can support up to 24GB of RAM.

dont sweat about bottleneck.

lets move on to the primary display,the graphic card.

ATI Radeon HD5970

the fastest,most powerful graphic card on the planet for RM2,240

DirectX11,2GB GDDR5

now that u have it all hooked up.go for the power supplies

power supplies are essential for uh...light things up of course.

the power supply varies for ur need

if your using only one graphic card,500 watt is recommendable.

but if ur a power user,get at least a 850 watt

corsair HX850W

a good pow supply.runs at low temp.pricing is about RM729

trust corsair & cooler master.

DO NOT BUY GENERIC CHINA MADE POWER SUPPLIES

i had experience with them.650 watt.RM59

gaming for 2 hours.cooked.recycled.

next,the physical memory.or RAM

the optimal need for ur pc is 8GB.

i daresay 4GB is more than enough.u wont need more unless ur a full time graphic designer with multiple screens or works in video decoding environment

also,check windows physical memory limit for certain operating system by highlighting the box below.

Version	Limit in 32-bit Windows	Limit in 64-bit Windows
Windows 7 Ultimate	4 GB	192 GB
Windows 7 Enterprise	4 GB	192 GB
Windows 7 Professional	4 GB	192 GB
Windows 7 Home Premium	4 GB	16 GB
Windows 7 Home Basic	4 GB	8 GB
Windows 7 Starter	2 GB	2 GB

Version	Limit in 32-bit Windows	Limit in 64-bit Windows
Windows Vista Ultimate	4 GB	128 GB
Windows Vista Enterprise	4 GB	128 GB
Windows Vista Business	4 GB	128 GB
Windows Vista Home Premium	4 GB	16 GB
Windows Vista Home Basic	4 GB	8 GB
Windows Vista Starter	1 GB	Not applicable

Version	Limit in 32-bit Windows	Limit in 64-bit Windows
Windows XP	4 GB	128 GB
Windows XP Starter Edition	512 MB	Not applicable

                        
                                                    yes,highlight the boxes or u wont see anything


                                                    



                                                                   ok,my recommendation

corsair XMS3 DDR3 gaming RAM

                                                                        4GB for RM 499
                                                           get two of these for RM899




                                           COOLING
                    with all those high-end peripherals,ur pc tends to heat up.
                                                                 causing random shutdown to keep the temp low
                                                       so this is where coolers play its role
                                                                                            

corsair cooling hydro series h50

RM329

                                                       hard disk+memory+graphic card cooler
                                                                              RM200










                                                   now ur all set.get urself a nice,cool casing

the bigger,the better.so it provides a thorough cooling for the components.

pricing,ready RM500

to be continued on pc accessories

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                                                           by the time u read this,take mind.
                                            naming things is something that needs to be given extra attention to.

                                                                         *click image for larger size*


                                                                

                                                 or so u see.to avoid misunderstanding
                                                                 *cough*Eri*cough*


                                          cant imagine how anyone could've thought of naming their hamsters ^that

                                                                 or even a nuclear project
                                                                     *cough*geneva*cough*


                                                               i've just posted something that i shouldnt,here
                                      nyahahahahahaha






unappropriate post is unappropriate

nyahahahaha

                                                                       Nyahahahahaha
                                             meet Geneva.a fucked up name for a tabby cat,i know.
                                                 he's ruthless,vicious,brutal and a born devastator.
                                                       he's also a good pillow,best use after meal
                                                                   photophobic,lazy.deadly
                                            loves tepung karipap,chocolate,kitten food & my foot
                                                                    
                                                                             seriously

                                                             been with us fr about 3 months.
                                                                       notice his eyes
                                                    guess thats what happens when he's serious

                                        
                                    he's kinda emo at times.but his meow never fails to melt me.
                                     jya.geneva is what i call him.named after game adaptation.
                                                        mom&dad calls him bengkok
                                                        bcoz of his 7(or L)-shaped tail
                                              safety measures are necessary when handling
                                                             he might leave a mark
                                                            

                                             aite.i called this one Tama.means 'egg' in japanese
                        no reason.she hate eggs.guess im outta idea with naming.heck.i named most of my things.
                                            unlike kono geneva-pillow-chan,she's friggin loud&playful
                                                   sadly,she's at the brink of losing her voice

                                *thats not her real pic btw.her socks pulled higher.but u get the idea*
                                              


                           so there.my current two tabby kitties.
                                                           not planning to make them an internet phenomenon like Maru
                                        it requires them to be fat,stupid,bubbly,awfully lazy & awkward.
                                                            in a good way.


                                                                           naaaah geneve & tama is a no.
                                                           high 5 for ma fav pillows




                                                  nyahahahahahahahahaha