homecoming

look at my previous post,now look here.how long has it been since i last wrote here.yes,almost a year without update.fortunately im alive and healthy along those period.its just that i didnt had the urge to feed anything here.things happens,let them pass.nope.i couldnt say that i was busy,nor losing my touch to write.everytime i tried to write,my mind would just float away in void.for instance,writing a crappy-as-possible forewords.when i couldnt think of anything,the cursor would just randomly floats on another tabs.then i'd forget what i was doing before;writing on my blog.the thoughts in my mind had always been the same every now and then.and its getting worse.it tends to let go of those minor little details and eventually forget.some calls it being carefree,i say its a nuisance.wait...not really the right word but how would you feel if your mind are easily occupied by other things when you are trying so hard to focus on a single subject?saying "its okay,you have a lot of time" constantly in your head.i guess its similar to attention deficit disorder,where you are not in control of your focus,always being occupied with your surroundings.my mind is that bad.i dont know which part of it is in defect.the thing is,im losing control of my focus.i couldnt keep track with my time.everything is in a mess.A MESS.

i may be calm on the outside,but its a whole different story inside.useless emotions are easilly stirred.oftenly getting worked up over a little thing.may that be the cause?is that why i couldnt think properly?would it not be better if i just forget those little things and move on.there,im letting go of things again.i really need to sort this out...

sometime i picture myself in point A,and whenever i had something to do i'd mark a point to B.
point A to B lies side-by-side,there isnt any gap in between them,nothing between me and my objective isnt it?
hell no,with my current condition,i could easily wanders to point WTFBBQZ.those are the distractions i had to deal with,every time.

you see this post is also going kelaut,an example right here.what a way to greet my blog.the point is,i didnt manage to write anything due to the said circumstances.stupid but true.i couldnt think properly.

along those time of my absence...a lot of stuff happens.from my first visit to Comic Fiesta to spending a week in Perak,representing the state of JOHOR to the National english drama competition.hahaha i know,the latter sounds completely impossible for a guy like me,but blimey.It happened.will be featured in the next post.
more things worth mentioning...crap ive already forgotten about them.reading my previous posts made me feels like 2010 was only yesterday.

speaking of previous post,ive noticed that i wrote some crap about my reasons on writing this blog.well the first part is true,but what the heck,screw the rest.i could've gotten myself a diary if that were the case.i believe i have the freedom to write whatever my mind expresses,and has the right to share.as long as i keep my butt safe from various 'ISA'(apart from the diminished one) wouldnt want to spread my useless ideology to the whole world.inb4 it would be called FAEZSM.looooool.

also my blog header is getting old lol.its soo irrelevant.so does my blog name.why didnt i think of something much cooler like the infamous freedom of association,mistisfile,blogserius or something along those line.harhar.
i can see some of my friends still updating their posts here,but not as frequent as they used to.some moved to tumblr,some just simply stopped.i still remember the time where blogger was like the shizz,everybody has them,everybody wants to express their few cents.and some ended up in the principal's office.told ya dawg,know your limit.when it comes to blogging,slandering and backstabbing statements are to be avoid.
meh,i made one long b4 anybody else back in livejournal.but only started posting craps here along with the others.
had a few readers.for the wrong reason i was being symphatized.maybe because of my style of writing that conveys inferiority in accordance to being humble.the mood is down most of the time,i could hardly write any upbeat joyful stuffs.so reading my blog is like reading a world war veteran's journal.wow bad metaphor,no wonder i screwed my BM.

thats about it for now.let this day be a mark for a constant update :d